Contemplation

Last week's sermon at church was about change (in essence) and how sometimes we're not where God wants us, and how we should always consult Him first in all major life decisions. Well, consult Him I did quite a while now, waiting on His good timing (which is ALWAYS perfect), and boy how things will be changing. One week ago, my beloved asked me to be his bride, and I ecstatically accepted. Sigh. Still on cotton candy clouds, I am. If you want to know how quickly word spread during church last Sunday, one person saw my ring while I was getting my coffee, and by the end of the service, my beloved and I were receiving several offerings of congratulations. Wildfire, my friends. Wildfire.

So back to the change stuff that I've been contemplating in the last two weeks. I have been struggling for some time now that I am not in the vocation I should be. Perhaps it's just me that thinks I need to do something different, or maybe God thinks that as well. If He's prodding me to move on to something better, perhaps that's why I'm floundering in the average. Change is scary, though, and most certainly always requires sacrifice. For years now, I've wanted to become a massage therapist. For one reason or another, I've not been able to pursue this. Yes, I've considered that maybe God doesn't want me to pursue this. And yes, I've considered that maybe it just hasn't been the right time, but the right time is fast-approaching. Money, of course, is an issue, but not insurmountable. I can pursue this change one of two ways: quit my job, and get my license quickly, or stay in my job, go to school part-time and get my license in a little over a year. I know which one I'd like to do. I'd like to get it over with as soon as possible. It's just a little scary to give up a salary, even a very small salary like mine.

My job is stressful. It's become even more stressful over the last two years. As much work as there is, I think the whole department could double in work force, but there's no way that will ever happen, especially with the suffering economy. I dread going to work most every day, even though I know what I do is a very worthy cause. If I left that job, I don't think my household would suffer in any way, nor would it put me in a financial bind for the 6 months it would take to obtain a massage therapy license.

So my friends, I ask that you join me and my beloved in praying about this situation. God's guidance is what I seek, and after talking with Him about it on numerous occasions, I feel He'd like me to share the burden so it's not quite so heavy on my heart. I'm sure that whatever is meant to take place will take place when God wants it to, as it always has in my life. If there's anything I know, it's that God puts me where He wants me, when He wants me there.

It has occurred to me to market my pursuit as an investment opportunity, offering my investors free massage therapy as repayment of their investment. Have table, will travel!