Where Does the Time Go?

Today would have marked my mother's 70th birthday. I'm having a hard time wrapping my mind around that one. I can't imagine what she'd be like at that age if she were still here. I can envision her only as she was before she left this earth. I mentioned this to my sister today, and she figures Mom would be the same, just older. I suppose she's right.

I've thought a lot about Mom today, as I do every day. But today, a little more of my time than usual was spent with thoughts and memories of her. I suppose that's only fitting, it being her birthday and all. The first day of spring. The earth coming back to life after a rather long, cold winter. And what a perfect day today was. Mom would have liked it. The clear blue sky, the sunshine, the warmth.

My mom has been gone nearly 10 years now, and it's difficult for me to wrap my mind around that fact as well. She knew only one of my children, Kailey, although she did get to feel Timmy kicking me, as I was about 5 months pregnant with him when she died. Kenzie is named for her (her middle name is Dee, my mom's first name), and it amazes me how much Kenzie is like her. When I look into Kenzie's eyes, it's like looking into Mom's. The rest of my family has noticed this, of course, and it warms our hearts.

It's not my personal belief that, when people die and go to heaven, they can look down and see us, keep up with what's going on here on earth, etc. Look at it this way, if you were in heaven with direct access to the Lord Almighty, would you really want to keep up with the goings-on down below? Uh, no. Too much to do up there! People gone on before that you'd probably want to catch up with. Not to mention, praising and worshiping God. Methinks that's what one's time would be spent doing upon entering the pearly gates. And I'm sure that's what Mom has been doing these 10 years. She did love to sing.

So, I said my prayers today, and I asked God if He could just give Mom a message for me. Tell her Happy Birthday and that she's missed, that sort of thing. I wonder if He does that. I really don't see why He wouldn't, and feel that He probably already did that for me. He's cool that way.